Breaking Free to be Who God has Called ME to be: A journey to healing©

Breaking Free to be Who God has Called ME to be: A journey to healing©

As I sit here I am holding back the tears; tears of brokenness over the years.

Broken from perceptions, broken by the words, fears, past and present days.  A spirit of rejection resonates.

History of generational, relational, inherited pains. Pain that has left me limping, pains that remain…from my beginnings.

But you oh Lord, my Savior, your body was broken for me.  SATAN, YOU MUST FLEE.  Jehovah-Rapha, You are my God who heals thee.

Oh Lord, mend, heal the broken pieces of my heart, of my mind.  Broken from the pain that I’ve allowed to rule and control me all this time. Ohhh Lord… I’m burdened down. I hear you Lord calling me to your presence, saying “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest.”  Rest my child, don’t you cry.  Wipe the tears from your eyes.

Am I there yet? No, I haven’t arrived. But I’m on this journey, determined to thrive.

Determined to win this battle in my mind with thoughts that collide.  Colliding…in a constant battle with the Word.  Trying to pull me down into that pit…I’m fighting with every hit.

From the fiery darts that try to block me, but I have the shield of faith to protect me.

I’ll never forget that feeling…feeling of loneliness, being misunderstood.  To talk about it…”Ohhhh that doesn’t do any good.”  I’m standing on His Word, with hands lifted to the sky, with the Lord my banner, I will defeat my enemy, praying to my God…Jehovah-Nissi.

You’d say, “they wouldn’t understand how I feel,” ohhh but I know someone who will.

This battle I’m in…a battle of depression; of disparity; this spirit of rejection SHALL NOT RULE OVER ME.

God is breaking every chain that had you bound…Can’t you hear the sound…A sound of victory…I’m free to be me…fearfully and wonderfully made…ME

I hear it Lord, the breaking of the bondage chains, freeing me from the slavery of my mind and replacing them with Your Word…words of life; removing the strife.

I AM NOT afraid to be who You have made me: a strong woman with hopes and dreams, with needs, vulnerabilities yet strong, confident and determined.

I make my declaration today, I am all that YOU SAY that I am.  I am FREE TO BE ME.


As I sit here, watching the candle flicker, drinking a tasty cup of coffee, reading an inspiring book (other than thinking that I couldn’t remember the last time I had any alone time), I was thinking about my atmosphere and how warm and inviting it was.

Everything around me provoked creativity. From the natural wooden floors, up the walls to the beautiful stained-glass art, from the naturalista at the front door to the bench-like tables and chairs; I could feel the creative juices starting to flow. The atmosphere was so peaceful. It’s in this type of environment that I can pray and listen; as I wait for God to download something beautiful in my ear.

It’s interesting how just changing your atmosphere can rejuvenate your spirit, revive gifts; revive you, or catapult your creativity to another level.

(Side note: that could also mean changing who you choose to fellowship with. Are they depleting or sowing into your life?). Think about it. But I digress.

So can you imagine the revelation, the creativity, the transformation that could manifest if we were consistent in giving God our undivided attention; taking time to get into a quiet place and have communion with Him?

He is our Creator. The One who created us with purpose, for a purpose. How are we to know what that purpose is or know which way to go, etc., if we don’t spend time with the One who created us? He is the One who endowed us with our gifts.

Just thinking.